the end

[cassidyrose]

My grandfather died tonight (Wednesday night).

Not much to say about it. I was already very depressed (a brief foray back into the world of SSRI's ended due to sleep disruption in the babe) and this just adds a touch of shit icing to it.

He was very ill and was certainly going to die within the year of one of many major ailments. It still sucks and is sad and distressing. No word on the funeral yet as we are at the mercy of the miltary cemetary and have to schedule with them. Bleah.

I feel most bad for my mom who lost both her parents in the past two years and had to take care of them extensively while they were dying.

I feel a bit disconnected from it all as I have not been as present as I was when my grandmother died since I have the baby now.

So, I no longer have any living grandparents. They died in 1980, 1995, 2004 and 2006.

Other than the birth of S. (which resulted in a very good thing, but was traumatic and very stressful nonetheless), this has been a really shitty four months. S.'s hospitalization, my surgery, dad's cancer and now this.

I am going to try to sleep, but am not holding out great hope.

Comments

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[loracs.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, I'm so sorry to hear this. Even knowing that someone is going to die, does not mitigate the pain. From everything you've told me, your grandfather was well loved, and in the end, that is a mark of a live well lived.
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[krasota.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

[lightning-rose.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your and your familys loss.

[gremlin44.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. *hugs*

I'll be thinking of you and your families.

[kalmn.livejournal.com]

*hug*

i'm so sorry.

Hugs for you

[zyxwvut.livejournal.com]

I'm very sorry for your loss. You'll be in our thoughts.

Z

P.S.: "Shit icing" -- very concise, and what an image!

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

I am very sorry to hear it.

I hope your mom is hanging in there. That must be incredibly traumatic.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Big hugs. I'm so sorry. May 2007 be better and may your memories of your grandfather be warm and happy.

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[the-ogre.livejournal.com]

You your family have my sympathy & condolences - been a stressful year all around.

[moominmuppet.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm really sorry to hear that. I'm thinking of you and your family.

[bandhiaduit.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, both for your loss and for the crappy four months.
Be good to yourself.

[kineticphoenix.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. *hug* I'll make sure you get some extra pampering tonight.

[karenthecroccy.livejournal.com]

:( Sorry to hear.

[prizmdonna.livejournal.com]

I'm very sorry for your loss. :-(

- donna

[ptor.livejournal.com]

I love you.

[wordweaverlynn.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[dandelion-diva.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, hon. Sending lots of good thoughts and vibes.

[klwalton.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Jessica.

[dbubley.livejournal.com]

I am sorry for your loss. I never knew my mother's dad because he died when she was 5 or 6. Her mother died when I was about 5 or 6. My father's mother died long before I was born, but unfortunately his father lived and was really the only grandparent I ever knew. He was crazy and abusively mean. I've never really understood grandparents, especially loving ones, but I do understand you have suffered a loss.

My sister died last year. I understood for a long time that I would probably outlive her, but nothing prepares you for the reality of it. Still, I often hold on to a hope that her death wasn't as sad for her as it was for those of us she left behind. I want to believe in "a better place." I want it for myself, but I just don't know. I just hope, and I'll hope for your grandfather, too.

[mactavish.livejournal.com]

It's been a hard time indeed. :/ I'm so sorry.

I'm glad that he had so much love in his life, and knew what he meant to you.

[rampling.livejournal.com]

Ohhhh, *hugs*, *hugs*, and more *HUGS*! My deepest sympathies.

[gloriajn.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Sweetie. I wish I could say I know how you feel, but (having lost my grandfathers either when I was really young or before I was born, and my grandmothers in my early teens) I have no idea. All I can do is offer my condolences.

condolences

[quixoticbent.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss.

I wheeled Wm. around in his stroller during his great-grandfather's service, since He had no tolerance for sitting still at the time. It was cold that day, but since then when we go visit, both boys love running in the grass at the cemetary.

I hope your new year is kinder.

much love,
Russell

Re: condolences

[ptor.livejournal.com]

Oh, you are quixoticbent!

Jessica and I have been wondering who'd open an anonymous account and then just friend me.

Thank you for your kind wishes...