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My grandfather died tonight (Wednesday night).
Not much to say about it. I was already very depressed (a brief foray back into the world of SSRI's ended due to sleep disruption in the babe) and this just adds a touch of shit icing to it.
He was very ill and was certainly going to die within the year of one of many major ailments. It still sucks and is sad and distressing. No word on the funeral yet as we are at the mercy of the miltary cemetary and have to schedule with them. Bleah.
I feel most bad for my mom who lost both her parents in the past two years and had to take care of them extensively while they were dying.
I feel a bit disconnected from it all as I have not been as present as I was when my grandmother died since I have the baby now.
So, I no longer have any living grandparents. They died in 1980, 1995, 2004 and 2006.
Other than the birth of S. (which resulted in a very good thing, but was traumatic and very stressful nonetheless), this has been a really shitty four months. S.'s hospitalization, my surgery, dad's cancer and now this.
I am going to try to sleep, but am not holding out great hope.
Not much to say about it. I was already very depressed (a brief foray back into the world of SSRI's ended due to sleep disruption in the babe) and this just adds a touch of shit icing to it.
He was very ill and was certainly going to die within the year of one of many major ailments. It still sucks and is sad and distressing. No word on the funeral yet as we are at the mercy of the miltary cemetary and have to schedule with them. Bleah.
I feel most bad for my mom who lost both her parents in the past two years and had to take care of them extensively while they were dying.
I feel a bit disconnected from it all as I have not been as present as I was when my grandmother died since I have the baby now.
So, I no longer have any living grandparents. They died in 1980, 1995, 2004 and 2006.
Other than the birth of S. (which resulted in a very good thing, but was traumatic and very stressful nonetheless), this has been a really shitty four months. S.'s hospitalization, my surgery, dad's cancer and now this.
I am going to try to sleep, but am not holding out great hope.
