I think it's sick that I am
Oct. 9th, 2001 08:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cassidyroseWell, my head hurta, my nose is stuffy, and my throat hurts. F**k, f**k, f**kity, f**ck. That is all I have to ay about that. I have gobs of research and writing to do before next Tuesday and I am not going to class this morning so I can get a couple of hours more of sleep rather than wasting three hours listening to my prof droan on and on and on. I will email my classmates to ask them what, if anything, I missed. I can't miss any work as we really need all the money I can get and I don't get sick pay. I will do some research while at work, I think.
M. was having major anxiety issues all last night so he just now has gotten to bed. I feel very, very badly for him.
Well, I am going to haul my sick ass back to bed for a bit so I can hopefully make it through the rest of the week reasonably well.
And today, of all days, B. and I end our three week hiatus of not talking. I thought I would be really worried about whether or not he would actually call, but I actually am not. hmmmmmm I guess I know he will call and if he doesn't, I won't die. That is a good feeling.
OK, back to bed for me.
M. was having major anxiety issues all last night so he just now has gotten to bed. I feel very, very badly for him.
Well, I am going to haul my sick ass back to bed for a bit so I can hopefully make it through the rest of the week reasonably well.
And today, of all days, B. and I end our three week hiatus of not talking. I thought I would be really worried about whether or not he would actually call, but I actually am not. hmmmmmm I guess I know he will call and if he doesn't, I won't die. That is a good feeling.
OK, back to bed for me.
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Date: 2001-10-09 02:03 pm (UTC)But I wish I could be as ``philosophical'' when someone doesn't call when they're s'posta. R. didn't call yesterday afternoon (as he'd promised), so I called him at 10pm. I hate that, and I hate that I didn't feel up to waiting him out to call.
I really hope things get less sucky for you very soon! *HUGS*
thanks....
Date: 2001-10-09 05:04 pm (UTC)Anyhow, I am usually not so OK about people not calling, but I have detached myself form letting B. make me feel bad enough so that I can shrug it off. He also always calls when he says he will, but this time is different (meaning there is more to it if he doesn't). We have deliberately (by his decree) not communicated for almost three weeks and he is supposed to call me once his parents are safely on their way back to Canada (after their 16-day visit here) and I am to decide at that point if I really want to keep him in my life. I have abandonment issues, so staying afloat during a period of non-communication is rough for me.
As for R. not calling as he promised...that is really, really shitty. You really should not have to deal with such rude and inconsiderate behavior.