meltdown

Argh.

I went off the narcotic pain meds this week because ptor is going back to work on Monday and I have to be off the drugs in order to drive and I do not want to be home with S. alone and unable to drive. The pain (from the c-section) kept getting worse over the past couple of days until last night I had a meltdown while trying to nurse S. I was already nursing lying down as sitting put too much pressure on the incision and everything else related to the surgery but the contractions from nursing were making me nauseated on top of all the surgery-related pain. I felt like I was losing it completely and was crying and ready to crawl out of my skin. Luckily, we had some breastmilk in the refrigerator and ptor finished the feeding with the bottle which helped. He also convinced me to take the damned drugs and that helped. So I am back on the pain meds and I will calling my doctor on Monday to see if what I am experiencing is normal.

I am so incredibly frustrated that the pain is so bad. It hurts to hold S. and to nurse and to do a million other things that I need and want to do. I don't like being in a narcotic haze and I already went throught the small withdrawal this week and don't look forward to doing it again. OTOH, I have to be able to function and feed S. It is not a great situation.

I am frustrated and cranky.

Bah.

c-section question

I will be talking to my doctor, but I'd like to know what you all have experienced.

For those of you who have had c-sections, how long did you have pain?

What was the level of this pain?

How long did your skin hurt in the area of the surgery (if it did at all--mine hurts a lot)?

When were you able to do your normal activities without being in pain?

How long did you have to take pain medication?

Any other input about c-section recovery would be appreciated (I realize now that gremlin44 has given me a name of a book I need to check out).

Thank you for your help.