I went off the narcotic pain meds this week because ptor
is going back to work on Monday and I have to be off the drugs in order to drive and I do not want to be home with S. alone and unable to drive. The pain (from the c-section) kept getting worse over the past couple of days until last night I had a meltdown while trying to nurse S. I was already nursing lying down as sitting put too much pressure on the incision and everything else related to the surgery but the contractions from nursing were making me nauseated on top of all the surgery-related pain. I felt like I was losing it completely and was crying and ready to crawl out of my skin. Luckily, we had some breastmilk in the refrigerator and ptor
finished the feeding with the bottle which helped. He also convinced me to take the damned drugs and that helped. So I am back on the pain meds and I will calling my doctor on Monday to see if what I am experiencing is normal.
I am so incredibly frustrated that the pain is so bad. It hurts to hold S. and to nurse and to do a million other things that I need and want to do. I don't like being in a narcotic haze and I already went throught the small withdrawal this week and don't look forward to doing it again. OTOH, I have to be able to function and feed S. It is not a great situation.
I am frustrated and cranky.